WTFBBQ

While the ex was deployed, it gave me time to really spend on myself. I was in a really great place actually, despite the fact that I rarely had a break from my 2 very young daughters I was almost completely content. I was able to just shrug off a bad day like it was just a small blip on the radar.

Lately I have been all over the place and it's consuming me. I change my mind daily about my feelings on relationships, jobs, my weight, and everything else. This needs to stop. I have too many things in my life that I am unable to control and I need to just suck it up and take a stand on the things that I can control.

Instead of sticking with a guy and being "whatever" because it makes me feel happy at the time I need to just let it go and see what happens. Said guy can't mean that much to me if I don't mean enough to him to get a call back. Life is not based on the fact that a person is single, engaged, divorced, in a relationship. None of the labels matter in the end, it's the good times that we share with good people that matter.

The focus in my life needs to be on my daughters and myself, and if along the way I meet Mr. Right then that is just an added bonus. I shouldn't feel like I need to lower my standards because I am divorced and have 2 beautiful daughters. I have learned so much from being in a crappy marriage and being a parent and I am definitely a better person for it. So here's to a girl's weekend and NOT making "bad decisions".